Honesty

Life has become harder
I'm mostly weak
I find that lately
I just can't speak

I've lost that sparkle
I've misplaced the joy
Delight is foreign
and life is noise

I miss it all
I can't go back
There's nothing ahead
and energy, I lack

I miss myself
I miss the hope
I miss the innocense
that helped me cope

I mourn the certainty
and optimism I've lost
I hate the decisions
and the painful cost

I regret the knowing
I hate the "Tree"
For knowing the evil
has disheartened me

I'm momentarily defeated
and, at this moment, I care not
For these are my true feelings
and right now they're all I've got.